~ moved to twitter (mah everyday journal, =p) ~
date: last week
Mah Princess,
As surprise as i am, you’re prolly woderin y im like thz. I don’t know either, i dunno y i suddenly got interested with you again. To tell you honestly, it started when something obscene happened. I actually asked mahself what i have gotten into cuzz baby i dont really mean no disrespect. Not only that, aftermath was, you juz basically shook mah head, woke me up from thz hell on earth i am in and made me realized that itz you who has alwayz been there. It was then when you proved me how youre willing to do anything juz to prove me everything. Baby, i cant forgive mahself for giving you so much distress. I’m sorry. I really am but I hope it wouldnt be too much if i ask you for help, cuzz baby i need you to tell me how i can get you off mah brain. With that dream i had today, i feel like hugging and kissing you ‘til the end of time. I dunno what to do nemor, im yearning for your love and affection, cuzz baby you drive me nutz and thz feelin is makin me psycho.
Loving you,
Soleil
date unknown
Chill and kill time with friendz, do any other thingz juz to have fun…but no matter what I do, at the end of the day, itz still me alone and broken..but naww, you all got me wrong, i aint have hopes nemor… Im glad that i made someone happy…though in a way of letting her go…God knowz how much i love her…how i wanted her back…but everythinz juz really not meant to be…At times, i ask myself of the thingz i weren’t able to do for her for us to end up like thz…so many questionz in mah mind up to now…yet i still cant find the reasons y…I wish she was able to tell me y, shouldnt be that coward enaff to juz go and leave me hangin, well in fact thatz whatz gonna make me understand her at put me at peace, shud have given me that as a respect that i deserve…Call me dumb, name me stupid, itz true im juz prolongin thz pain that i shud have gotten over with by now…but im not a liar, thz is what i feel n i cud never lie to myself…
TBC
